Thursday, January 8, 2009

Splitting at the seams

I do not think I have been under this much stress since I was a freshman/sophomore in college. And I honestly do not know how to handle myself anymore, I feel like I'm just heading for complete and utter exhaustion.

I found out today that my students are "cyber-bullying" another student. My cheerleaders logged in to their facebook to show me the conversation taking place. I have never in my life heard such nasty things...I thought I was a bad kid and a gossip when I was younger but they beat me by a million miles. Now one of my students is having an extremely hard time with this and honestly I'm not quite sure what is going to happen. Frankly, I'm worried. I don't know if I should intervene anymore than I have already...because really what can I do? It's not like it's happening directly in my classroom so I'm not sure if they would even listen to me. This is all very hard for me to deal with and it just brings up very bad memories.

I've gotten a lot of stuff planned when it comes to the wedding, but there is still a long way to go and that worries me. I always tend to make a big deal out of little things and planning every single detail is throwing me for a loop. I cannot wait until all of this is over. I hate when people get excited over wedding plans; they say OH MY GOD I LOVE PLANNING WEDDINGS AHHHHHHHHHH....and I say....YOU ARE FREAKING CRAZY! I can't stand planning, it just stresses me out!!!!!! UGH!

And I have to figure out whether I should continue being the cheerleading coach next year or not. I'm leaning towards not, but I'm worried that may somehow make me look bad. And my students were atrocious in class today....to the point where I didn't even speak at a level they could hear...I didn't repeat what I said because they were talking over me....and I hope they realize how much they disrespect and upset me by the obvious hurt feelings that were shown all over my face. Sometimes I just don't understand kids in junior high.

Hopefully, I'll survive.

1 comment:

jessicatrice said...

I guess I'm a weirdo because I love wedding stuff. But I'm also very much a fan of to-do lists and crossing things off the list. You know I'll help you in every way possible! I'm sorry about your exhaustion and students, mine were crazy today, too. I'm so tired of yelling and telling them to be quiet, but I don't know what the next step is. Ugh. We need to get together soon! We didn't see each other over our break!!