18 weeks

My cousin recently posted on my facebook wall that I should put up 'baby bump' pictures for those who don't see me on a regular basis. Well....I'm pretty hesitant to do that on facebook since, when fully clothed, I don't necessarily feel like I look pregnant yet- I just think it looks like I've gained a little weight or ate too much or something! Maybe I'm just being weird, but it is way easier to tell the preggo belly without the shirt fully covering it. BUT I'm not about to post pictures of my bare belly to the world of facebook since I'm friends with former students and people that I may not necessarily want seeing my belly...I'm just too self conscious or something I don't know.

So I decided to post some here since only like 3 people read this (maybe more that I don't know...but if I don't know them then it doesn't really bother me too much) and I'll just give my cousin the link so she can look and show family if she wants or whatever....

Ugh...I'm still not used to the whole baby belly thing-I used to be pretty skinny in high school (remember I got to that size zero Jenna?!?!?) and I was pretty fit in college, not a size zero but definitely a small person. Once I got out of college I start to put on a little weight which made me feel TERRIBLE and then once I got married I gained even more(I still wouldn't consider myself big but definitely couldn't fit in anything I wore when I was 18-21). So now that I'm gaining baby weight I feel kinda depressed-I know you'll say that I'm just gaining baby weight and it is natural but it's very hard seeing your body go from a size 5 to a who knows what in maternity clothes! And when my students look at my belly and say "oh my gosh Mrs. D has a little baby bump" it is sometimes hard to comprehend. I guess I was just always preoccupied with being skinny-which is why I got to a size zero in high school-and now that I'm not "skinny" it is hard to see myself the same way.

I by no means want pity for any of these feelings by the way...because I do know that the baby belly means that I'm going to have a bundle of joy soon. I also know that it is completely natural and something that I can remedy after the baby is born-I just wanted you to know why I'm not posting pictures and things like that on facebook and such.

These were all taken today, just at different angles.


Don't mind the messy counter my makeup kinda takes over the whole thing!

Obviously as you can tell by the awkwardness of my pose I was trying to stick it out just a bit...btw these are my favorite pants, army green and totally chic mommy pants!

And the side view. Some of my students asked why I'm not big yet considering I'm almost 5 months, but I keep telling that that they just have to wait another month or so and then I'll be super big! Well maybe not super big but definitely rounder!