Friends are home-I'm nervous-it is too hot outside!

It is so strange thinking that I have friends who live overseas who need to fly in to come see family and friends during the Holiday season. BUT...I do, Christy came in from England last week and Ashley came in from Dominica last Friday. I got to see them both and it is amazing how you can go almost a year without seeing someone and just pick right up where you left off. I felt like we were back in high school, making immature jokes and just having a really good time together-which is something I needed.
I've started to become EXTREMELY nervous/scared about Ellie's pending arrival. I mean, I've been around babies a lot-when my nephew was born my brother and his wife still lived w/my parents and so did I, so I was there helping to take care of him since he came home from the hospital. That was 3 and a half years ago! I've watched Brady grow up...from changing his diapers to now taking him to the bathroom-to fixing bottles to cleaning up messes every time he spills his 'big boy' cup-so I always assumed I would be completely prepared for my own kid. The big difference is that when Brady was whining or I got tired of playing peek-a-boo after 2 hours I could just give him back to his parents. With my own child I won't be able to do that and that reality is starting to sink in as I get closer and closer to that 40 week due date.
I know how to change diapers, how to give a bottle, how to soothe a fussy baby-all the basics, but it will be so much different when it is my daughter, there will be no one to give her to if I can't calm her down or if I don't feel like playing hide and seek. That is what makes me nervous. I want to be the best mom possible just as I try my best to be the best aunt possible, but there is a giant leap between aunt and mom. It is a little nerve racking especially for someone like me who worries about every little thing known to man.

All this said, I realized today that my issues/problems/worries are so much less than others. My baby is healthy. I am healthy (minus the rockin cough I got going on). My parents, brothers, niece, nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents are all relatively healthy-or at least if they aren't they have immediate remedies to their problems. My husband is healthy-he has even stopped smoking, not just for me and Ellie but for himself. My friends are healthy. There are people who aren't so lucky... like this woman (http://sociallyinappropriatemom.blogspot.com/2010/11/day-we-were-served-shit-sandwich.html) her unborn daughter is facing some serious health issues and my heart goes out to her and her family. Please pray for her if you do that sort of thang.


And to make this post not completely serious-it is freaking HOT outside. Am I wrong or is today the first day of winter? Well my friends, here in this lovely (and by lovely I mean hellish) part of the country it was around 80 freaking degrees outside today!!!!!! It doesn't feel like Christmas AT ALL! I really really really really want to move back up north, especially after days like today. Oh Chicago, can't you just magically find a job for my husband and I somewhere in your beautiful wintry city?
English lesson for today-what literary device did I just use in that last sentence/question?? Hmmm? Jessica you can't answer!