I AM TIRED OF WAITING!!
Can I be done with this pregnancy already? I just want to be able to sleep in a normal position without cramps in my legs; I want to wake up and look at the crib next to the bed and actually see a baby in there.
Like I told Jeff today, I wish that they could more accurately predict when labor would start. I'm tired of waiting and wondering...will I go into labor this week? Next week? Will I be induced so I'm not late? Will my water break at school?
URGH! So many things that I don't know...that I can't know because it isn't up to me, it is up to Ellie...
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
2 and a half weeks away...
Quick update:
Went to the doctor on Wednesday and she said I am already dilated to a 1 and 70% effaced which apparently is rare for a first time mommy to be that way so soon. I have also heard stories of women who are dilated for weeks before they give birth soooooo who knows? Doctors can be wrong about due dates all the time!
But I go back to the doctor on Tuesday so we'll see if I've made any progress and if this baby is coming any time soon. Either way I did discuss with the doctor that I do not want to go late so I'm sure if the due date comes close and there is still no little Ellie that we will discuss inducing.
Obviously I'll try to keep you posted, but as the day gets closer I find myself busier and more distracted by everything that needs to be done before she is here.
Went to the doctor on Wednesday and she said I am already dilated to a 1 and 70% effaced which apparently is rare for a first time mommy to be that way so soon. I have also heard stories of women who are dilated for weeks before they give birth soooooo who knows? Doctors can be wrong about due dates all the time!
But I go back to the doctor on Tuesday so we'll see if I've made any progress and if this baby is coming any time soon. Either way I did discuss with the doctor that I do not want to go late so I'm sure if the due date comes close and there is still no little Ellie that we will discuss inducing.
Obviously I'll try to keep you posted, but as the day gets closer I find myself busier and more distracted by everything that needs to be done before she is here.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
OOooooooooooooooo so close!
So this week I hit the 36 week mark and am well on my way to week 37! At week 37, your baby is considered full term so if Ellie did decide to come soon she is practically developed enough to not have to spend any extra time in the hospital. That is just crazy! I can't believe that in a few short weeks I will be a real mom...some little human being is going to be completely dependent on Jeff and I.
Update on how I'm doing: I am tired, cranky, sore, tired, exhausted, weak, did I mention tired? Work is really draining me, I thought that I would still have a little energy to work in these last few weeks, but now that I'm back at school after break I'm dreading every day! I don't know if I'll be able to make it to the end of January unless I get some crazy burst of energy! Technically I just have to last another two weeks, but I'd really like to make it three so that I have less time off that is going to be unpaid.
In other news....my dogs are being super annoying. I'm thinking about getting rid of Duke more and more each day-he just isn't a good 'family' dog in my opinion. Plus it is really hard to try to take care of two young dogs and then thinking about adding a newborn to the mix makes my head spin!
I have nothing more to write about for now....the end.
Update on how I'm doing: I am tired, cranky, sore, tired, exhausted, weak, did I mention tired? Work is really draining me, I thought that I would still have a little energy to work in these last few weeks, but now that I'm back at school after break I'm dreading every day! I don't know if I'll be able to make it to the end of January unless I get some crazy burst of energy! Technically I just have to last another two weeks, but I'd really like to make it three so that I have less time off that is going to be unpaid.
In other news....my dogs are being super annoying. I'm thinking about getting rid of Duke more and more each day-he just isn't a good 'family' dog in my opinion. Plus it is really hard to try to take care of two young dogs and then thinking about adding a newborn to the mix makes my head spin!
I have nothing more to write about for now....the end.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
APOSTROPHE!!
Apostrophe: is a figure of speech in which someone absent or dead or something nonhuman is addressed as if it were alive and present and was able to reply.
That is the literary term I used when I talked to Chicago as if it was real. Silly people.
That is the literary term I used when I talked to Chicago as if it was real. Silly people.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Friends are home-I'm nervous-it is too hot outside!
It is so strange thinking that I have friends who live overseas who need to fly in to come see family and friends during the Holiday season. BUT...I do, Christy came in from England last week and Ashley came in from Dominica last Friday. I got to see them both and it is amazing how you can go almost a year without seeing someone and just pick right up where you left off. I felt like we were back in high school, making immature jokes and just having a really good time together-which is something I needed.
I've started to become EXTREMELY nervous/scared about Ellie's pending arrival. I mean, I've been around babies a lot-when my nephew was born my brother and his wife still lived w/my parents and so did I, so I was there helping to take care of him since he came home from the hospital. That was 3 and a half years ago! I've watched Brady grow up...from changing his diapers to now taking him to the bathroom-to fixing bottles to cleaning up messes every time he spills his 'big boy' cup-so I always assumed I would be completely prepared for my own kid. The big difference is that when Brady was whining or I got tired of playing peek-a-boo after 2 hours I could just give him back to his parents. With my own child I won't be able to do that and that reality is starting to sink in as I get closer and closer to that 40 week due date.
I know how to change diapers, how to give a bottle, how to soothe a fussy baby-all the basics, but it will be so much different when it is my daughter, there will be no one to give her to if I can't calm her down or if I don't feel like playing hide and seek. That is what makes me nervous. I want to be the best mom possible just as I try my best to be the best aunt possible, but there is a giant leap between aunt and mom. It is a little nerve racking especially for someone like me who worries about every little thing known to man.
All this said, I realized today that my issues/problems/worries are so much less than others. My baby is healthy. I am healthy (minus the rockin cough I got going on). My parents, brothers, niece, nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents are all relatively healthy-or at least if they aren't they have immediate remedies to their problems. My husband is healthy-he has even stopped smoking, not just for me and Ellie but for himself. My friends are healthy. There are people who aren't so lucky... like this woman (http://sociallyinappropriatemom.blogspot.com/2010/11/day-we-were-served-shit-sandwich.html) her unborn daughter is facing some serious health issues and my heart goes out to her and her family. Please pray for her if you do that sort of thang.
And to make this post not completely serious-it is freaking HOT outside. Am I wrong or is today the first day of winter? Well my friends, here in this lovely (and by lovely I mean hellish) part of the country it was around 80 freaking degrees outside today!!!!!! It doesn't feel like Christmas AT ALL! I really really really really want to move back up north, especially after days like today. Oh Chicago, can't you just magically find a job for my husband and I somewhere in your beautiful wintry city?
English lesson for today-what literary device did I just use in that last sentence/question?? Hmmm? Jessica you can't answer!
I've started to become EXTREMELY nervous/scared about Ellie's pending arrival. I mean, I've been around babies a lot-when my nephew was born my brother and his wife still lived w/my parents and so did I, so I was there helping to take care of him since he came home from the hospital. That was 3 and a half years ago! I've watched Brady grow up...from changing his diapers to now taking him to the bathroom-to fixing bottles to cleaning up messes every time he spills his 'big boy' cup-so I always assumed I would be completely prepared for my own kid. The big difference is that when Brady was whining or I got tired of playing peek-a-boo after 2 hours I could just give him back to his parents. With my own child I won't be able to do that and that reality is starting to sink in as I get closer and closer to that 40 week due date.
I know how to change diapers, how to give a bottle, how to soothe a fussy baby-all the basics, but it will be so much different when it is my daughter, there will be no one to give her to if I can't calm her down or if I don't feel like playing hide and seek. That is what makes me nervous. I want to be the best mom possible just as I try my best to be the best aunt possible, but there is a giant leap between aunt and mom. It is a little nerve racking especially for someone like me who worries about every little thing known to man.
All this said, I realized today that my issues/problems/worries are so much less than others. My baby is healthy. I am healthy (minus the rockin cough I got going on). My parents, brothers, niece, nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents are all relatively healthy-or at least if they aren't they have immediate remedies to their problems. My husband is healthy-he has even stopped smoking, not just for me and Ellie but for himself. My friends are healthy. There are people who aren't so lucky... like this woman (http://sociallyinappropriatemom.blogspot.com/2010/11/day-we-were-served-shit-sandwich.html) her unborn daughter is facing some serious health issues and my heart goes out to her and her family. Please pray for her if you do that sort of thang.
And to make this post not completely serious-it is freaking HOT outside. Am I wrong or is today the first day of winter? Well my friends, here in this lovely (and by lovely I mean hellish) part of the country it was around 80 freaking degrees outside today!!!!!! It doesn't feel like Christmas AT ALL! I really really really really want to move back up north, especially after days like today. Oh Chicago, can't you just magically find a job for my husband and I somewhere in your beautiful wintry city?
English lesson for today-what literary device did I just use in that last sentence/question?? Hmmm? Jessica you can't answer!
Friday, December 10, 2010
No title??
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bq1yzH64kn4
Check that youtube video out-it is hilarious and it just so happens to be my little brother (who in reality isn't little- 6'8" to be exact- maybe I should call him my younger brother).
Pregnancy update:
I am REALLY REALLY tired...when people ask me how I am, I only have one response: exhausted. I never thought I could feel this tired...well that is a lie. I've felt this tired before, about 4 times to be exact, when I've had mono-yes that is right I've had mono 4 times....stupid compromised immune system! Anywhoozle...I'm tired. I wake up in the morning and never feel refreshed. I wake up about a million times during the night to pee which probably just contributes to the whole overall exhaustion. Luckily next week is finals week and then I'll have a nice 2 week break to sleep as much as I want....
But then I just have to go back to work for like 3 weeks until Ellie is born so I think the break will just spoil me.
Other things....I need new contacts, I can't see out of my right one at all and I'm pretty sure it is because its like 4 months old. BUT the doctor told me not to go to the eye doctor to get new ones because pregnancy can mess with your eyesight so it could be a waste of time since my eyes will probably change once again after Ellie is born. That was totally a run on sentence.
School news...
Junior high students. Need I say more? I want to teach high school and high school only. If I had my way I would only teach 10th grade next year...but we need the money (unless Jeff's police situation works out).
I'm blabbering and it is irritating. I don't like not being able to think clearly or write coherently-stupid baby brain!
Check that youtube video out-it is hilarious and it just so happens to be my little brother (who in reality isn't little- 6'8" to be exact- maybe I should call him my younger brother).
Pregnancy update:
I am REALLY REALLY tired...when people ask me how I am, I only have one response: exhausted. I never thought I could feel this tired...well that is a lie. I've felt this tired before, about 4 times to be exact, when I've had mono-yes that is right I've had mono 4 times....stupid compromised immune system! Anywhoozle...I'm tired. I wake up in the morning and never feel refreshed. I wake up about a million times during the night to pee which probably just contributes to the whole overall exhaustion. Luckily next week is finals week and then I'll have a nice 2 week break to sleep as much as I want....
But then I just have to go back to work for like 3 weeks until Ellie is born so I think the break will just spoil me.
Other things....I need new contacts, I can't see out of my right one at all and I'm pretty sure it is because its like 4 months old. BUT the doctor told me not to go to the eye doctor to get new ones because pregnancy can mess with your eyesight so it could be a waste of time since my eyes will probably change once again after Ellie is born. That was totally a run on sentence.
School news...
Junior high students. Need I say more? I want to teach high school and high school only. If I had my way I would only teach 10th grade next year...but we need the money (unless Jeff's police situation works out).
I'm blabbering and it is irritating. I don't like not being able to think clearly or write coherently-stupid baby brain!
Monday, December 6, 2010
I don't feel like blogging
But I figure that I haven't updated in a while...so here is your update from me...
I have had a nosebleed every morning since the beginning of November.
I hope you enjoyed that.
I have had a nosebleed every morning since the beginning of November.
I hope you enjoyed that.
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