Random update...

JEFF IS HOME!! Despite the rocky Saturday night, everything has been perfect! I have my ring...so the engagement is official! Everything is falling in to place as far as wedding plans go and I'm excited that I don't have to plan this alone anymore. Jeff seems more interested in planning since he came home which is nice annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd it's just nice to have him home.

Other than that things have been going the same. I abandoned the book idea pretty quickly, and that probably doesn't surprise anyone. I just don't like anything I write and it's irritating; plus Jeff is writing something and it blows everything I have out of the water!

RIDICULOUS!

Book

I've decided what I'm going to write about when I finally get around to writing...someday. I've wanted to write a novel since I was like 7 and I even attempted to start one several times but I always end up hating it and I would throw the paper away. The only problem with my current topic of choice is that I might piss off several members of my family, but I don't really care at this point. I'm tired of forgiving people that don't deserve forgiveness. As 'un-christian' as that is I believe human beings can only be pushed so far. And I'm at my limit.
So, I'm going to write about all the things I've experienced in my life....I'm going to Charles Dickens it...per say. So I'll keep you updated on how that goes.
Hopefully, I'll be famous because somehow I think I was meant for greater things than what I'm doing now.

Splitting at the seams

I do not think I have been under this much stress since I was a freshman/sophomore in college. And I honestly do not know how to handle myself anymore, I feel like I'm just heading for complete and utter exhaustion.

I found out today that my students are "cyber-bullying" another student. My cheerleaders logged in to their facebook to show me the conversation taking place. I have never in my life heard such nasty things...I thought I was a bad kid and a gossip when I was younger but they beat me by a million miles. Now one of my students is having an extremely hard time with this and honestly I'm not quite sure what is going to happen. Frankly, I'm worried. I don't know if I should intervene anymore than I have already...because really what can I do? It's not like it's happening directly in my classroom so I'm not sure if they would even listen to me. This is all very hard for me to deal with and it just brings up very bad memories.

I've gotten a lot of stuff planned when it comes to the wedding, but there is still a long way to go and that worries me. I always tend to make a big deal out of little things and planning every single detail is throwing me for a loop. I cannot wait until all of this is over. I hate when people get excited over wedding plans; they say OH MY GOD I LOVE PLANNING WEDDINGS AHHHHHHHHHH....and I say....YOU ARE FREAKING CRAZY! I can't stand planning, it just stresses me out!!!!!! UGH!

And I have to figure out whether I should continue being the cheerleading coach next year or not. I'm leaning towards not, but I'm worried that may somehow make me look bad. And my students were atrocious in class today....to the point where I didn't even speak at a level they could hear...I didn't repeat what I said because they were talking over me....and I hope they realize how much they disrespect and upset me by the obvious hurt feelings that were shown all over my face. Sometimes I just don't understand kids in junior high.

Hopefully, I'll survive.

Update...

More bad things....

Brady ripped the molding off of my aunt's kitchen cabinet

Papa ran into one of the bar stools, knocking it over and breaking the base.



Ps. ...my papa and dad were involved with the mafia...no joke

PPS....My dad told me to download some songs from 'back in the day' ...one good one: Right Place, Wrong Time by Dr. John (it's just funny)
And a super horrible one: Don't you touch my leg by Maria Muldaur

Christmas Eve should have been a warning...

We should have known that this Christmas wouldn't turn out the way other peoples' do just because of Christmas Eve. My brother is typically negative about his presents, church and the whole shebang but this year was different. He went to church, no complaints; he watched his kids, no complaints; he opened his parents, no complaints....SUPER STRANGE. And very out of character.

So since he was actually on his best behavior we should have known that the rest of the break would go downhill. But.......no.

My parents, little brother, and I all rode up to Illinois, with my 1 and a half year old nephew screaming for the last 30 minutes. This was crappy part numero uno.

Dos...My great uncle Freddy was put into the hospital with a septic infection, kidney failure and all sorts of crazy stuff. The last update we had: he's off blood pressure meds, his face and hands are swollen, he has a blood clot in his arm, his infection started in his bladder and he is still in critical condition. Prayers requested, thank you.


Tres...My dad hit my aunt and uncle's car in the driveway. We were on our way to my aunt's house and my dad just didn't see their car, that happened to be sitting in the driveway the entire 12 hour day.

Quatro...The neighbor across the street backed up into my cousins car. The front driver's side needs to be completely re-done. $1000s of work.

Cinco....My grandfather was trying to get out of his garage and ripped the mirror off of his car.


I think that is about all that happened this week, so far.

We still have until Tuesday when we have to drive back to Texas.

Man I want a sour patch kid

'Tis almost the night before Christmas...which means it's almost present time at the Tutwiler house!! My mom went way over board with presents this year, but I'm not sure if we are getting quality or quantity. I suppose I'll have to figure that out when I open presents tomorrow night!
Then on Christmas day we are travelling to me grandmother's house in Illinois. Most of my family will be there including some second cousins coming to visit just because my family and I will be there. I expect that there will be a lot of wedding talk...which will just make me more stressed out then I need to be. Grrr

In other news...did you know (according to Tyler, which isn't the most reliable source) that redheads statistically know more about music then brunettes or blondes?

And I only painted my nails on my right hand....maybe I'll start a new trend?

I saw Jeff's parents today and talked to them for like 2 and a half hours! Ridiculous! We mostly talked about religion and drugs which for some reason are popular topics when we get into discussion. Sometimes it's nice to talk to adults that aren't your parents. Not that I'm not an adult or my friends aren't adults....but you know what I mean.

Side note: some of my friends definitely don't act like adults...



Well, I hope everyone has a very merry Christmas! I will not be updating until well after the holidays...

Britney Spears

Jenna and I are going to learn how to dance like Britney Spears in her "Circus" video.

Basically we are amazing.

Patrick and Ashley graduated today! Congrats!!! And for that reason we are going to celebrate tonight, maybe we'll do the dance for them.


Yes. We are wearing our hair the exact same way. She's wearing black and I'm wearing green. I feel you needed to know this.

Thumb over the mouth: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.