Myself first

Today I chose to put myself first.
I chose not to back down to someone who is clearly out of their mind.
I chose not to give the said person an excuse for their behavior because let's face it, your behavior was unjustifiable and unforgivable.
You could pay me a million dollars every year until the day I die and I will still despise you, loathe you and want you banished from my exsistence.

The most depressing part of this situation is that they will always choose you over me. My life, my husband, my child, my home, my feelings, my sanity, my safety...they all mean nothing compared to you and your 'problems'. Since I can remember they have chosen you, so why would it be different now. "Oh, poor you...you just can't help it" or "Amanda, you need to suck it up because there are bigger issues to deal with" or "We need you (meaning me) to be the bigger person, we ignore you because we know you'll be okay".

WELL I AM CERTAINLY NOT OKAY! But it is too late for apologies and too late for you to fix things...because you choose him.

And I choose me.