No paid maternity leave

I'm SO SO SO SO SO upset right now. I just found out that I do not get paid maternity leave, I know that a lot of jobs do not offer that, but I really figured that mine would!

I have just been plunged into a mini depression. I have so many things running through my mind now...
How can we go 6 weeks without my paycheck? Can I even take the 6 weeks off? Does that mean I'll have to leave my newborn baby with someone else sooner than expected? How do we pay for doctor's visits? What if something happens to me and I have to be out 6 weeks??

Plus my insurance sucks so that is a money sucker too....

I think I might just go cry in a corner. And early today I was in such a good mood because I thought that everything was going so well...

I know I should be excited about having the baby, period. But if you know me...you know that it is impossible for me to think that way; my mind goes directly towards negative things every chance it gets. I know that I really should only worry about keeping myself healthy and the baby healthy but how can I not stress out when we might go broke?!?!

Ugh...I can't even write coherently anymore so I'm out.