Thursday, July 22, 2010

Where did Train go and why did they come back?

I remember when I first heard the band Train back in uh....2001 (sorry I had to google that). 2001, I was a sophomore in high school at that time and I really liked that song "Drops of Jupiter" but eventually it got old and I didn't like the adult contemporary sound; I was slowly turning towards punk rock and let's face it The Dead Kennedys probably wouldn't approve of Train. The band has been together since the mid-90s, that is a stinking long time!!
ANYWAY....
I'll get to my point since I'm not really clever today (it's a billion degrees outside in Texas, again, and it zaps all my brain power).

WHY DID TRAIN COME BACK?????
I am SICK, SICK I tell you of that stupid, pop, crap, dirt, yuckiness "Hey, Soul Sister" it really needs to go die slowly in an elevator somewhere in Manhattan. I'm really not a fan, I've tried my hardest to sing along to the catchy beat and love the obnoxious ukulele but I just CAN'T.
To further cement my dislike of Train there was their performance on America's Got Talent. Did you see it? No? Check it out on youtube....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzT9SQfMEDc

Do you think it was a good performance? For a band that has been around since I was like 8 or 9 shouldn't they know how to perform in public? Or maybe is it just because they are aging and the lead singer just can't hit those notes anymore?
If you have a different opinion and would like to correct me or convince me that they don't suck by all means give it your best shot!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Dang you China Sun!

I think I have started the 'craving' phase of my pregnancy. I was watching Bram Stoker's Dracula (which by far is my most favorite vampire movie of all time, because it just makes more sense...silly Twilight, vampires don't twinkle in the sun) and I was hit by the sudden urge...no, not urge...desire for chicken fried rice.
Problem number 1: I do not know how to make chicken fried rice and even if I did we don't have the necessary ingredients.
Problem number 2: After realizing that I have to resort to take out, I also realize that my lil dinky town has no such place offering Chinese food. We only have Pizza Hut, McDonalds and Jack in the Box...what a selection!
Problem number 3: I finally figure that I'll just run into the next town for some China Sun take out...but they won't answer their phone. So, I'll just drive there no big deal.

So here is me, pregnant lady, driving all the way to China Sun -only to get there and see that THEY ARE CLOSED ON SUNDAYS!!! AGGHHHH!!!!

Now I'm eating Burger King because I can't really stomach McDonalds anymore and nothing else sounded worthy of my time.

Random: my house is surrounded/infested by crickets...if I could just organize them into some sort of circus I'm sure I'd make millions.




Okay, so I am going to take this time to tell my friend Jessica that I think she is amazing! And I am so glad that I got to meet her in college and that I'm so very happy that we are still friends :) You inspire me to be more crafty, resourceful, down to earth and over all more loving to the people around me!
Maybe we don't make more friends in our older age (ha! older age...) because we've already found the coolest people there is to find.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Update

Shoot me.

The school also doesn't pay their part of the insurance premium while I'm out on maternity leave. So not only am I not getting paid, but I'll have to pay for my insurance in full.


They really want me to have a mental breakdown.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

No paid maternity leave

I'm SO SO SO SO SO upset right now. I just found out that I do not get paid maternity leave, I know that a lot of jobs do not offer that, but I really figured that mine would!

I have just been plunged into a mini depression. I have so many things running through my mind now...
How can we go 6 weeks without my paycheck? Can I even take the 6 weeks off? Does that mean I'll have to leave my newborn baby with someone else sooner than expected? How do we pay for doctor's visits? What if something happens to me and I have to be out 6 weeks??

Plus my insurance sucks so that is a money sucker too....

I think I might just go cry in a corner. And early today I was in such a good mood because I thought that everything was going so well...

I know I should be excited about having the baby, period. But if you know me...you know that it is impossible for me to think that way; my mind goes directly towards negative things every chance it gets. I know that I really should only worry about keeping myself healthy and the baby healthy but how can I not stress out when we might go broke?!?!

Ugh...I can't even write coherently anymore so I'm out.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Question of the week...or wuestion as I first typed it

If you saw this name...

NAZIH

how would you pronounce it?
An old friend of mine just named her firstborn son this and I can't help but think of WWII Germany! What a future for this child....

Friday, July 2, 2010

Myself first

Today I chose to put myself first.
I chose not to back down to someone who is clearly out of their mind.
I chose not to give the said person an excuse for their behavior because let's face it, your behavior was unjustifiable and unforgivable.
You could pay me a million dollars every year until the day I die and I will still despise you, loathe you and want you banished from my exsistence.

The most depressing part of this situation is that they will always choose you over me. My life, my husband, my child, my home, my feelings, my sanity, my safety...they all mean nothing compared to you and your 'problems'. Since I can remember they have chosen you, so why would it be different now. "Oh, poor you...you just can't help it" or "Amanda, you need to suck it up because there are bigger issues to deal with" or "We need you (meaning me) to be the bigger person, we ignore you because we know you'll be okay".

WELL I AM CERTAINLY NOT OKAY! But it is too late for apologies and too late for you to fix things...because you choose him.

And I choose me.