Apostrophe: is a figure of speech in which someone absent or dead or something nonhuman is addressed as if it were alive and present and was able to reply.
That is the literary term I used when I talked to Chicago as if it was real. Silly people.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Friends are home-I'm nervous-it is too hot outside!
It is so strange thinking that I have friends who live overseas who need to fly in to come see family and friends during the Holiday season. BUT...I do, Christy came in from England last week and Ashley came in from Dominica last Friday. I got to see them both and it is amazing how you can go almost a year without seeing someone and just pick right up where you left off. I felt like we were back in high school, making immature jokes and just having a really good time together-which is something I needed.
I've started to become EXTREMELY nervous/scared about Ellie's pending arrival. I mean, I've been around babies a lot-when my nephew was born my brother and his wife still lived w/my parents and so did I, so I was there helping to take care of him since he came home from the hospital. That was 3 and a half years ago! I've watched Brady grow up...from changing his diapers to now taking him to the bathroom-to fixing bottles to cleaning up messes every time he spills his 'big boy' cup-so I always assumed I would be completely prepared for my own kid. The big difference is that when Brady was whining or I got tired of playing peek-a-boo after 2 hours I could just give him back to his parents. With my own child I won't be able to do that and that reality is starting to sink in as I get closer and closer to that 40 week due date.
I know how to change diapers, how to give a bottle, how to soothe a fussy baby-all the basics, but it will be so much different when it is my daughter, there will be no one to give her to if I can't calm her down or if I don't feel like playing hide and seek. That is what makes me nervous. I want to be the best mom possible just as I try my best to be the best aunt possible, but there is a giant leap between aunt and mom. It is a little nerve racking especially for someone like me who worries about every little thing known to man.
All this said, I realized today that my issues/problems/worries are so much less than others. My baby is healthy. I am healthy (minus the rockin cough I got going on). My parents, brothers, niece, nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents are all relatively healthy-or at least if they aren't they have immediate remedies to their problems. My husband is healthy-he has even stopped smoking, not just for me and Ellie but for himself. My friends are healthy. There are people who aren't so lucky... like this woman (http://sociallyinappropriatemom.blogspot.com/2010/11/day-we-were-served-shit-sandwich.html) her unborn daughter is facing some serious health issues and my heart goes out to her and her family. Please pray for her if you do that sort of thang.
And to make this post not completely serious-it is freaking HOT outside. Am I wrong or is today the first day of winter? Well my friends, here in this lovely (and by lovely I mean hellish) part of the country it was around 80 freaking degrees outside today!!!!!! It doesn't feel like Christmas AT ALL! I really really really really want to move back up north, especially after days like today. Oh Chicago, can't you just magically find a job for my husband and I somewhere in your beautiful wintry city?
English lesson for today-what literary device did I just use in that last sentence/question?? Hmmm? Jessica you can't answer!
I've started to become EXTREMELY nervous/scared about Ellie's pending arrival. I mean, I've been around babies a lot-when my nephew was born my brother and his wife still lived w/my parents and so did I, so I was there helping to take care of him since he came home from the hospital. That was 3 and a half years ago! I've watched Brady grow up...from changing his diapers to now taking him to the bathroom-to fixing bottles to cleaning up messes every time he spills his 'big boy' cup-so I always assumed I would be completely prepared for my own kid. The big difference is that when Brady was whining or I got tired of playing peek-a-boo after 2 hours I could just give him back to his parents. With my own child I won't be able to do that and that reality is starting to sink in as I get closer and closer to that 40 week due date.
I know how to change diapers, how to give a bottle, how to soothe a fussy baby-all the basics, but it will be so much different when it is my daughter, there will be no one to give her to if I can't calm her down or if I don't feel like playing hide and seek. That is what makes me nervous. I want to be the best mom possible just as I try my best to be the best aunt possible, but there is a giant leap between aunt and mom. It is a little nerve racking especially for someone like me who worries about every little thing known to man.
All this said, I realized today that my issues/problems/worries are so much less than others. My baby is healthy. I am healthy (minus the rockin cough I got going on). My parents, brothers, niece, nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents are all relatively healthy-or at least if they aren't they have immediate remedies to their problems. My husband is healthy-he has even stopped smoking, not just for me and Ellie but for himself. My friends are healthy. There are people who aren't so lucky... like this woman (http://sociallyinappropriatemom.blogspot.com/2010/11/day-we-were-served-shit-sandwich.html) her unborn daughter is facing some serious health issues and my heart goes out to her and her family. Please pray for her if you do that sort of thang.
And to make this post not completely serious-it is freaking HOT outside. Am I wrong or is today the first day of winter? Well my friends, here in this lovely (and by lovely I mean hellish) part of the country it was around 80 freaking degrees outside today!!!!!! It doesn't feel like Christmas AT ALL! I really really really really want to move back up north, especially after days like today. Oh Chicago, can't you just magically find a job for my husband and I somewhere in your beautiful wintry city?
English lesson for today-what literary device did I just use in that last sentence/question?? Hmmm? Jessica you can't answer!
Friday, December 10, 2010
No title??
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bq1yzH64kn4
Check that youtube video out-it is hilarious and it just so happens to be my little brother (who in reality isn't little- 6'8" to be exact- maybe I should call him my younger brother).
Pregnancy update:
I am REALLY REALLY tired...when people ask me how I am, I only have one response: exhausted. I never thought I could feel this tired...well that is a lie. I've felt this tired before, about 4 times to be exact, when I've had mono-yes that is right I've had mono 4 times....stupid compromised immune system! Anywhoozle...I'm tired. I wake up in the morning and never feel refreshed. I wake up about a million times during the night to pee which probably just contributes to the whole overall exhaustion. Luckily next week is finals week and then I'll have a nice 2 week break to sleep as much as I want....
But then I just have to go back to work for like 3 weeks until Ellie is born so I think the break will just spoil me.
Other things....I need new contacts, I can't see out of my right one at all and I'm pretty sure it is because its like 4 months old. BUT the doctor told me not to go to the eye doctor to get new ones because pregnancy can mess with your eyesight so it could be a waste of time since my eyes will probably change once again after Ellie is born. That was totally a run on sentence.
School news...
Junior high students. Need I say more? I want to teach high school and high school only. If I had my way I would only teach 10th grade next year...but we need the money (unless Jeff's police situation works out).
I'm blabbering and it is irritating. I don't like not being able to think clearly or write coherently-stupid baby brain!
Check that youtube video out-it is hilarious and it just so happens to be my little brother (who in reality isn't little- 6'8" to be exact- maybe I should call him my younger brother).
Pregnancy update:
I am REALLY REALLY tired...when people ask me how I am, I only have one response: exhausted. I never thought I could feel this tired...well that is a lie. I've felt this tired before, about 4 times to be exact, when I've had mono-yes that is right I've had mono 4 times....stupid compromised immune system! Anywhoozle...I'm tired. I wake up in the morning and never feel refreshed. I wake up about a million times during the night to pee which probably just contributes to the whole overall exhaustion. Luckily next week is finals week and then I'll have a nice 2 week break to sleep as much as I want....
But then I just have to go back to work for like 3 weeks until Ellie is born so I think the break will just spoil me.
Other things....I need new contacts, I can't see out of my right one at all and I'm pretty sure it is because its like 4 months old. BUT the doctor told me not to go to the eye doctor to get new ones because pregnancy can mess with your eyesight so it could be a waste of time since my eyes will probably change once again after Ellie is born. That was totally a run on sentence.
School news...
Junior high students. Need I say more? I want to teach high school and high school only. If I had my way I would only teach 10th grade next year...but we need the money (unless Jeff's police situation works out).
I'm blabbering and it is irritating. I don't like not being able to think clearly or write coherently-stupid baby brain!
Monday, December 6, 2010
I don't feel like blogging
But I figure that I haven't updated in a while...so here is your update from me...
I have had a nosebleed every morning since the beginning of November.
I hope you enjoyed that.
I have had a nosebleed every morning since the beginning of November.
I hope you enjoyed that.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
She's a gymnast!
I didn't necessarily believe people when they told me that you would be able to see your baby, literally pick out a hand, foot or the top of their head when they move around. Within the past few days, I've really noticed an increase in movement-Ellie moves probably 80% of the day now and when I wake up at night (to use the bathroom for like the 10th time) she is moving then too!
Yesterday, I sat at breakfast with my coworkers waiting for our staff development meeting to start...and then she started moving like crazy. Well not only could you see my stomach moving like it was the ocean during a storm, BUT I could actually tell that her head was on the right side and her feet were on the left side. My belly had this strange bulge...I was like ummm are preggo bellies supposed to become uneven...and then I felt, slightly pushing, on that right side AND YOU COULD TOTALLY TELL IT WAS THE BABY!!! Such a cool feeling!
Jeff has gotten to feel her a lot too-and see her moving around. Sometimes, depending on how she is laying, you can touch a part of my stomach and pick out if its just a part of her torso or if it's a tiny foot or hand!! Very very neat-you still can't tell by just looking, it really just looks like I have a tumor or something, but you can totally feel it!
On that note- I am really ready for this pregnancy to be over with and to finally have the lil' one out here and with us. We've done so much thinking about what she will look like, who she will take after, if she'll like her clothes or bedding or even will she like us...that I am just tired of waiting. I think Jeff is too.
BTW...anyone willing to donate money so we can get a new back door? lol
Yesterday, I sat at breakfast with my coworkers waiting for our staff development meeting to start...and then she started moving like crazy. Well not only could you see my stomach moving like it was the ocean during a storm, BUT I could actually tell that her head was on the right side and her feet were on the left side. My belly had this strange bulge...I was like ummm are preggo bellies supposed to become uneven...and then I felt, slightly pushing, on that right side AND YOU COULD TOTALLY TELL IT WAS THE BABY!!! Such a cool feeling!
Jeff has gotten to feel her a lot too-and see her moving around. Sometimes, depending on how she is laying, you can touch a part of my stomach and pick out if its just a part of her torso or if it's a tiny foot or hand!! Very very neat-you still can't tell by just looking, it really just looks like I have a tumor or something, but you can totally feel it!
On that note- I am really ready for this pregnancy to be over with and to finally have the lil' one out here and with us. We've done so much thinking about what she will look like, who she will take after, if she'll like her clothes or bedding or even will she like us...that I am just tired of waiting. I think Jeff is too.
BTW...anyone willing to donate money so we can get a new back door? lol
Friday, November 19, 2010
Baby is fine
Just a quick update:
fFn test came back negative which means I'm not leaking that fetal fluid that attaches the baby to the amniotic sac HURRAY! Which in turn means...no premature labor-at least as far as they can tell.
So we've got about 10 or so weeks to go....let the countdown begin!
fFn test came back negative which means I'm not leaking that fetal fluid that attaches the baby to the amniotic sac HURRAY! Which in turn means...no premature labor-at least as far as they can tell.
So we've got about 10 or so weeks to go....let the countdown begin!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Baby news-scary times-way behind
So I am in my third trimester (almost 29 weeks to be exact) and it definitely feels like we are in the home stretch. My body aches all the time; I'm just very thankful that I had a very easy 6 and a half months before this so I figure 3 months of pain isn't too bad! She is moving around a lot-she still hasn't move up any...most of the preggers people I know told me I would feel her around my rib cage and things but she is definitely settled towards the bottom-which means lots of kicking on my bladder! Whoopee for me!
But we did have a little scare yesterday...I woke up and noticed some spotting. I was told that if I noticed anything like this to call the doctor immediately, so I called today (they aren't open on Sundays obviously) and made an appointment. The appointment was moved about 3 times and I had to see the nurse practitioner because my doctor was out delivery another baby. They are running several tests to see why I had spotting and some cramping today. They tested for infections and also for fetal fibronectin.
FF is some sort of hormone/chemical that indicates if you might go into labor early. If the test is negative for that then I don't really have to worry about anything, but I will be tested and looked at more often. If it tests positive that means I'm highly likely to go into preterm labor-there are things they can do to prevent a premature birth or to help her lungs grow faster so that if she were born early she would be okay....but that is something we'll worry about if the test is positive. I'm trying to remain optimistic and not worry so much about it, but if you know me then you know that I stress out about everything.
I'll keep you updated on that.
The other thing I wanted to mention is that I am WAY beyond behind in grading and school related work. I'm glad that this is the last week before Thanksgiving and I don't plan on handing out homework really, so hopefully I can get caught up. So little time and so so much to do!
But we did have a little scare yesterday...I woke up and noticed some spotting. I was told that if I noticed anything like this to call the doctor immediately, so I called today (they aren't open on Sundays obviously) and made an appointment. The appointment was moved about 3 times and I had to see the nurse practitioner because my doctor was out delivery another baby. They are running several tests to see why I had spotting and some cramping today. They tested for infections and also for fetal fibronectin.
FF is some sort of hormone/chemical that indicates if you might go into labor early. If the test is negative for that then I don't really have to worry about anything, but I will be tested and looked at more often. If it tests positive that means I'm highly likely to go into preterm labor-there are things they can do to prevent a premature birth or to help her lungs grow faster so that if she were born early she would be okay....but that is something we'll worry about if the test is positive. I'm trying to remain optimistic and not worry so much about it, but if you know me then you know that I stress out about everything.
I'll keep you updated on that.
The other thing I wanted to mention is that I am WAY beyond behind in grading and school related work. I'm glad that this is the last week before Thanksgiving and I don't plan on handing out homework really, so hopefully I can get caught up. So little time and so so much to do!
Friday, November 5, 2010
MY BACK HURTS!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH My back hurts SO stinking bad right now!
And yet another reason why pregnancy is not so awesome...
I really have nothing else to write about necessarily.
My neighbor came over last night to tell Jeff that he found drug paraphanalia aorund his yard, which probably means this his neighbors (the people across the street from us) are doing cocaine and heroine. Whoopee! Hopefully they don't get too crazy and start stealing from the neighborhood.
Jeff is on drill this weekend. They still have started his paperwork for early release which really really really makes me angry. We need the army to make a decision so that he can make a decision about what he is going to do for the rest of his life. So ARMY SUCKS!
I got nothing else. I'm boring. I apologize.
And yet another reason why pregnancy is not so awesome...
I really have nothing else to write about necessarily.
My neighbor came over last night to tell Jeff that he found drug paraphanalia aorund his yard, which probably means this his neighbors (the people across the street from us) are doing cocaine and heroine. Whoopee! Hopefully they don't get too crazy and start stealing from the neighborhood.
Jeff is on drill this weekend. They still have started his paperwork for early release which really really really makes me angry. We need the army to make a decision so that he can make a decision about what he is going to do for the rest of his life. So ARMY SUCKS!
I got nothing else. I'm boring. I apologize.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
You look like Barbie today!
My students today flipped out because I was wearing a ponytail; apparently I don't wear ponytails and they make me look like Barbie. Maybe if Barbie was pregnant?!?! But she is always just the babysitter.
My students are also testing my patience a lot these days. I'm not sure if it is pregnancy hormones because I'm not the only teacher who feels this way, but I have noticed myself get more agitated at a certain grade lately. UGH!!!
On another note....
KFC people are RUDE!!! I decided to pick up dinner since I've been attempting to cook and try new recipes out all weekend/week and it frankly exhausts me. So I pull through the drive thru and order the family meal so Jeff has dark meat and I can have white and still have leftovers for lunch and stuff tomorrow. (I'm using a lot of conjunctions...) The guy asks me if I want to donate money to save starving children...
Let me pause here and tell you about me and donating. I have donated to Breast Cancer Awareness, Charity Water and a Diabetes foundation this year. Does this make me a saint? No. Does this mean I'm done donating forever? Absolutely not. BUT it does mean that I actually DO care about charities and that I am willing to donate when I have money.
Back to the story...
I politely tell the guy no, I would not like to donate at this time and he says in the MOST SARCASTIC voice I have ever heard "naturally". It was like he was saying..."oh, so typical young American girl who can't even give a dollar to save starving children in Africa". Please dude, I don't make a lot of money and at the moment every dollar is pretty darn important so no I can't donate right now, but maybe I will later. Did you ever think that I could donate at another KFC or other location? Or maybe I already have donated?!?!?!?!?! It just made me really angry. Jeff says I should have asked to talk to a manager because the guy was just super rude.
He also gave us stale biscuits. I hate stale bread more than I hate the bottom of Jeff's feet.
NEW SUBJECT
Pregnancy update:
26 weeks along today. Feeling huge. Baby is almost 2 pounds...and getting bigger every day! Feet are sore. Back is sore. Eye is twitching. Fingers are swelling. So so so so so so so so tired.
The end!
My students are also testing my patience a lot these days. I'm not sure if it is pregnancy hormones because I'm not the only teacher who feels this way, but I have noticed myself get more agitated at a certain grade lately. UGH!!!
On another note....
KFC people are RUDE!!! I decided to pick up dinner since I've been attempting to cook and try new recipes out all weekend/week and it frankly exhausts me. So I pull through the drive thru and order the family meal so Jeff has dark meat and I can have white and still have leftovers for lunch and stuff tomorrow. (I'm using a lot of conjunctions...) The guy asks me if I want to donate money to save starving children...
Let me pause here and tell you about me and donating. I have donated to Breast Cancer Awareness, Charity Water and a Diabetes foundation this year. Does this make me a saint? No. Does this mean I'm done donating forever? Absolutely not. BUT it does mean that I actually DO care about charities and that I am willing to donate when I have money.
Back to the story...
I politely tell the guy no, I would not like to donate at this time and he says in the MOST SARCASTIC voice I have ever heard "naturally". It was like he was saying..."oh, so typical young American girl who can't even give a dollar to save starving children in Africa". Please dude, I don't make a lot of money and at the moment every dollar is pretty darn important so no I can't donate right now, but maybe I will later. Did you ever think that I could donate at another KFC or other location? Or maybe I already have donated?!?!?!?!?! It just made me really angry. Jeff says I should have asked to talk to a manager because the guy was just super rude.
He also gave us stale biscuits. I hate stale bread more than I hate the bottom of Jeff's feet.
NEW SUBJECT
Pregnancy update:
26 weeks along today. Feeling huge. Baby is almost 2 pounds...and getting bigger every day! Feet are sore. Back is sore. Eye is twitching. Fingers are swelling. So so so so so so so so tired.
The end!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh
This week has been one of the strangest weeks I can remember...
I was told that people have back pain when they are pregnant and before this week I have escaped this problem, but lo and behold yesterday I experienced extreme discomfort in my lower back. My feet are swollen and in pain as well...ugh not a fan! Once again I present another reason to dislike pregnancy in general.
I guess that doesn't really make my week strange.
I found out that my best friend's mom has cancer-we aren't sure how bad it is, but I honestly am lost for words as to what to say. It is so out of the blue that I'm completely caught off guard and if I'm feeling that way I can't imagine how she is feeling at this moment. I wish there was something that I could do or say to make the situation better, but to be honest I just feel helpless. This woman is like my 2nd mom; in high school I was over at their house all the time and she never once got annoyed with me always being around or anything. I just want to be there for her and my best friend as much as I can during this difficult time.
That made my week strange. Realizing that our parents are getting older-that we are getting older. That the older we get the more this type of news will start to surround us. (that is a fragment, it bothers me but I'm not going to fix it)
My mom also found out that her diabetes is type 1 which means that it is genetic, which heightens my chance of having it or my child having it. It also means that my mom will always have to take insulin shots rather than the possibility of going on pills to control her diabetes. I know she was really upset about this and upset that it's genetic and we had no idea about it.
Strange. Just strange. I don't know, maybe not.
I was told that people have back pain when they are pregnant and before this week I have escaped this problem, but lo and behold yesterday I experienced extreme discomfort in my lower back. My feet are swollen and in pain as well...ugh not a fan! Once again I present another reason to dislike pregnancy in general.
I guess that doesn't really make my week strange.
I found out that my best friend's mom has cancer-we aren't sure how bad it is, but I honestly am lost for words as to what to say. It is so out of the blue that I'm completely caught off guard and if I'm feeling that way I can't imagine how she is feeling at this moment. I wish there was something that I could do or say to make the situation better, but to be honest I just feel helpless. This woman is like my 2nd mom; in high school I was over at their house all the time and she never once got annoyed with me always being around or anything. I just want to be there for her and my best friend as much as I can during this difficult time.
That made my week strange. Realizing that our parents are getting older-that we are getting older. That the older we get the more this type of news will start to surround us. (that is a fragment, it bothers me but I'm not going to fix it)
My mom also found out that her diabetes is type 1 which means that it is genetic, which heightens my chance of having it or my child having it. It also means that my mom will always have to take insulin shots rather than the possibility of going on pills to control her diabetes. I know she was really upset about this and upset that it's genetic and we had no idea about it.
Strange. Just strange. I don't know, maybe not.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Teacher Thursdays-long post
I'm going to try a new thing; every Thursday I'm going to dedicate my blog to all things teacher related. The likelihood of that sticking, let's just be honest, is slim to none but whatever!
So the first Teacher Thursday will be dedicated to.....Parent-Teacher Conferences.
Dun Dun Dun.
Today I got to school around 7:30 and did not get to leave until around 4:10 which by any teacher's standards is a long day. It is an especially long day when you have to talk to parents about their children. Parents are so protective over their children (obviously, this is understandable and I assume I'll understand it more once Ellie is born) but sometimes they are so protective that they put up blinders as to who their children really are. So let me clue you parents in a little bit- if the school calls you for a conference, that means your child is either suffering academically and we need your help to push your child in the right direction OR your child is a trouble maker and we need you to back us up when it comes to discipline.
So let's start with academic issues...
We, as teachers, understand that some kids are slower at understanding certain subjects than others. We will try our best (at least at my school) to help your child in any way we possibly can so that they can succeed in our class and at least be a decent student. No one is asking for your student to get a 100% on every assignment, we just want an effort put forth. BUT and a big but is- some students just don't care about academics. So if your child is one of these, let me tell you something- IT IS NOT MY FAULT! I cannot make your child love reading, writing, analyzing literature and grammar rules. I cannot convince a child, who already has it in their mind that they hate English class, that they need to work hard and put forth effort into my class beyond staying awake. This is where you come in. You as the parent need to turn to your child and say: get your lazy butt in gear and make good grades or I'm taking all over your privileges away. Yes, a cell phone, video game, TV, facebook, car etc...these are all privileges not God given rights that every child deserves.
On to behavior issues:
Obviously, if you are being called in to have a conference with more than one teacher that means your student is behaving badly. We won't call you in if little Jimmy is behaving spectacularly. So here is the short list for what you need to know if this happens to you...
1. Your student does not behave the same way in school as they do at home; don't assume that they are perfect angels in the classroom just because they behave this way in front of you. Lesson: kids are manipulative and they will let you see what they want you to see.
2. Just because they have friends in class does not make it a valid excuse to misbehave. Lesson: tell your student that social hour is outside of class-this helps back up what we already say on a daily basis.
3. Don't blame another student for your child's behavior. Once your child is in our realm (middle/high school) they are the only person responsible for how they behave. Responsibility for your actions is something kids need to learn and let's face it-you aren't giving them any at home so they don't have any at school.
4. We don't hate your child. We never said that we hate your child. We don't pick on your child. Let me repeat- WE DO NOT PICK ON YOUR CHILD! When a child consistently misbehaves, what do you want us to do? So if you mean that we correct them on a daily basis or we speak to them about their behavior constantly when you say we pick on them then yes, we do.
That pretty much sums up my feelings about parent teacher conferences. We as teachers have a responsibility to teach your child, but really we aren't the ones that are raising them. So while we have influence over them and we do take our jobs seriously, we can only do our jobs effectively if we have you helping at home. The end.
So the first Teacher Thursday will be dedicated to.....Parent-Teacher Conferences.
Dun Dun Dun.
Today I got to school around 7:30 and did not get to leave until around 4:10 which by any teacher's standards is a long day. It is an especially long day when you have to talk to parents about their children. Parents are so protective over their children (obviously, this is understandable and I assume I'll understand it more once Ellie is born) but sometimes they are so protective that they put up blinders as to who their children really are. So let me clue you parents in a little bit- if the school calls you for a conference, that means your child is either suffering academically and we need your help to push your child in the right direction OR your child is a trouble maker and we need you to back us up when it comes to discipline.
So let's start with academic issues...
We, as teachers, understand that some kids are slower at understanding certain subjects than others. We will try our best (at least at my school) to help your child in any way we possibly can so that they can succeed in our class and at least be a decent student. No one is asking for your student to get a 100% on every assignment, we just want an effort put forth. BUT and a big but is- some students just don't care about academics. So if your child is one of these, let me tell you something- IT IS NOT MY FAULT! I cannot make your child love reading, writing, analyzing literature and grammar rules. I cannot convince a child, who already has it in their mind that they hate English class, that they need to work hard and put forth effort into my class beyond staying awake. This is where you come in. You as the parent need to turn to your child and say: get your lazy butt in gear and make good grades or I'm taking all over your privileges away. Yes, a cell phone, video game, TV, facebook, car etc...these are all privileges not God given rights that every child deserves.
On to behavior issues:
Obviously, if you are being called in to have a conference with more than one teacher that means your student is behaving badly. We won't call you in if little Jimmy is behaving spectacularly. So here is the short list for what you need to know if this happens to you...
1. Your student does not behave the same way in school as they do at home; don't assume that they are perfect angels in the classroom just because they behave this way in front of you. Lesson: kids are manipulative and they will let you see what they want you to see.
2. Just because they have friends in class does not make it a valid excuse to misbehave. Lesson: tell your student that social hour is outside of class-this helps back up what we already say on a daily basis.
3. Don't blame another student for your child's behavior. Once your child is in our realm (middle/high school) they are the only person responsible for how they behave. Responsibility for your actions is something kids need to learn and let's face it-you aren't giving them any at home so they don't have any at school.
4. We don't hate your child. We never said that we hate your child. We don't pick on your child. Let me repeat- WE DO NOT PICK ON YOUR CHILD! When a child consistently misbehaves, what do you want us to do? So if you mean that we correct them on a daily basis or we speak to them about their behavior constantly when you say we pick on them then yes, we do.
That pretty much sums up my feelings about parent teacher conferences. We as teachers have a responsibility to teach your child, but really we aren't the ones that are raising them. So while we have influence over them and we do take our jobs seriously, we can only do our jobs effectively if we have you helping at home. The end.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
In case you missed it on facebook
close up of the belly (not on facebook)
a little shy of 24 weeksIt is so weird to see a stomach when looking down instead of let's say...my thighs I guess? So strange! But I have been told that I'm still considered small for how far along I am so I will take that! BTW those jeans are still my pre-preggo jeans;obviously I use a belly band because they don't fit over my tummy but they still fit everywhere else :)
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Things NOT to say to a pregnant woman
1. You look chubbier today
2. Are those pregnancy pants or can you still fit in your regular pants?
3. Your belly makes your butt look bigger
4. I knew a pregnant woman once...she lost her baby at 6 months along
5. What happens if you die while you are still pregnant?
6. You actually look pregnant today (if you say this you automatically imply that I just looked fat yesterday)
7. Can I touch your belly?
8. That's a horrible name to name a child!
9. Your baby could be born with down syndrome you know (as if I didn't know that)
10. What if your baby is ugly?
11. You are actually poking out there aren't you?
I'm pretty sure I could think of more, but these are just a few that I've actually heard out of the mouths of the people surrounding me. UGH!
2. Are those pregnancy pants or can you still fit in your regular pants?
3. Your belly makes your butt look bigger
4. I knew a pregnant woman once...she lost her baby at 6 months along
5. What happens if you die while you are still pregnant?
6. You actually look pregnant today (if you say this you automatically imply that I just looked fat yesterday)
7. Can I touch your belly?
8. That's a horrible name to name a child!
9. Your baby could be born with down syndrome you know (as if I didn't know that)
10. What if your baby is ugly?
11. You are actually poking out there aren't you?
I'm pretty sure I could think of more, but these are just a few that I've actually heard out of the mouths of the people surrounding me. UGH!
Monday, October 4, 2010
New things and stuff
Okay so before sharing baby news and updates I need to tell you about something that I'm extremely excited about. THE TEMPEST!!! In case you don't know, this one author named uhhh, oh yeah William Shakespeare wrote this little play called The Tempest. Well, someone decided to revamp it into a movie that is coming out in December of this year and why am I so excited?
BECAUSE....Helen Mirran is in it! So is Djimon Hounsou! AND Russell Brand! If you know me at all you would know that I have a deep affection for strange, offbeat British comedy and my biggest celebrity crush in recent times is Noel Fielding who happens to be super good friends with Russell Brand. Ooooooh the British hilarity and gorgeousness :)
BABY NEWS...
I'm 23 weeks along. The baby is about a pound or more. I can literally feel one part of her body on one side of my stomach and then her kicking on the other side. The coolest thing is that you can actually see it! Now Jeff can see her moving or feel her depending on how hard she is punching or kicking that day...it is pretty awesome!
My belly on the other hand...not so awesome and I'm totally not digging this side of pregnancy. I don't have cravings (I really wish people would stop asking me that) and I don't eat a million pounds a day, but it's like this has a mind of its own! It just keeps growing-my students claim they notice a difference daily, but I reassure them that it is because of the clothes I wear-sometimes loose, sometimes tighter.
I really don't know why women enjoy being pregnant- you get fat, your feet swell, you are freaking tired all the time, you are hungry, you eventually stop being able to see your feet, it hurts to bend over so you have to do the "pregnant squat", you get hot even when its freezing, you can't sleep on your stomach or your back....I could go on.
I guess some women are just glad to be able to have babies. Don't get me wrong, I am excited...very excited about the baby just not about the pregnant deal. I like the end product. I'm pretty sure that is how I am about everything though. Classic Amanda.
I think this blog is a bit scatter brained. I'm suffering from this thing called "baby brain" so blame it on that.
BECAUSE....Helen Mirran is in it! So is Djimon Hounsou! AND Russell Brand! If you know me at all you would know that I have a deep affection for strange, offbeat British comedy and my biggest celebrity crush in recent times is Noel Fielding who happens to be super good friends with Russell Brand. Ooooooh the British hilarity and gorgeousness :)
BABY NEWS...
I'm 23 weeks along. The baby is about a pound or more. I can literally feel one part of her body on one side of my stomach and then her kicking on the other side. The coolest thing is that you can actually see it! Now Jeff can see her moving or feel her depending on how hard she is punching or kicking that day...it is pretty awesome!
My belly on the other hand...not so awesome and I'm totally not digging this side of pregnancy. I don't have cravings (I really wish people would stop asking me that) and I don't eat a million pounds a day, but it's like this has a mind of its own! It just keeps growing-my students claim they notice a difference daily, but I reassure them that it is because of the clothes I wear-sometimes loose, sometimes tighter.
I really don't know why women enjoy being pregnant- you get fat, your feet swell, you are freaking tired all the time, you are hungry, you eventually stop being able to see your feet, it hurts to bend over so you have to do the "pregnant squat", you get hot even when its freezing, you can't sleep on your stomach or your back....I could go on.
I guess some women are just glad to be able to have babies. Don't get me wrong, I am excited...very excited about the baby just not about the pregnant deal. I like the end product. I'm pretty sure that is how I am about everything though. Classic Amanda.
I think this blog is a bit scatter brained. I'm suffering from this thing called "baby brain" so blame it on that.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
YOU ARE SO IGNORANT!!!
I just "defriended" someone on Facebook because they posted the most ignorant note I have read in quite some time. I used to think this person was very level headed and pretty open minded and tolerant...WRONG!
Their post was about the Muslim community center that is being built by ground zero. Before you go all "but they killed innocent women and children" or "they are mocking us" hear me out for a second. This person said that it was un-American to let them build their community center, and please it's a community center not a Mosque. Last time I checked the AMERICAN constitution, it gives everyone the right to practice any religion they choose anywhere they so please. So maybe you need to review what America was founded on and what the intention our founding fathers had.
They also went on to say the most hateful things towards all Muslims-basically calling all of them terrorists and that they should all go back to the middle east. REALLY? Do you realize that what you just said echoes the rhetoric of Hitler, the KKK, neo-nazis and other hate groups?
We simply cannot give races, ethnicities, religions or genders these 'blanket' statements and assume that it is okay! Not all Muslims are terrorists, just like not all African Americans are gangsters...Mexicans are not all drug lords...homosexuals are not out to turn the world gay...women can be just as stupid or smart as men...not all Russians are spies...etc
If you go back in history and look at the MILLIONS of people that so called "christians" have murdered you would be amazed. BUT do we say that all Christians are murderers, rapists and thieves? Absolutely not, because that would just be an outrage! So why do we insist on doing this to other religions or groups of people?
It just made me mad/upset that someone would show such ignorance in this day and age. My generation is supposed to be the one that brings about tolerance, that changes the views of our parents and grandparents. We are supposed to be accepting and loving to all. How about we focus on the actual people doing the crimes or acts of terrorism instead of focusing on what race/religion/gender/sexual preference they are! Evil is an individual problem, if it wasn't then we should just wipe everyone off of the map because at least one person from every walk of life has done something evil in their lifetime...and if we go by 'blanket' statements then none of us deserve to be alive or tolerated anyway.
UGH!
Their post was about the Muslim community center that is being built by ground zero. Before you go all "but they killed innocent women and children" or "they are mocking us" hear me out for a second. This person said that it was un-American to let them build their community center, and please it's a community center not a Mosque. Last time I checked the AMERICAN constitution, it gives everyone the right to practice any religion they choose anywhere they so please. So maybe you need to review what America was founded on and what the intention our founding fathers had.
They also went on to say the most hateful things towards all Muslims-basically calling all of them terrorists and that they should all go back to the middle east. REALLY? Do you realize that what you just said echoes the rhetoric of Hitler, the KKK, neo-nazis and other hate groups?
We simply cannot give races, ethnicities, religions or genders these 'blanket' statements and assume that it is okay! Not all Muslims are terrorists, just like not all African Americans are gangsters...Mexicans are not all drug lords...homosexuals are not out to turn the world gay...women can be just as stupid or smart as men...not all Russians are spies...etc
If you go back in history and look at the MILLIONS of people that so called "christians" have murdered you would be amazed. BUT do we say that all Christians are murderers, rapists and thieves? Absolutely not, because that would just be an outrage! So why do we insist on doing this to other religions or groups of people?
It just made me mad/upset that someone would show such ignorance in this day and age. My generation is supposed to be the one that brings about tolerance, that changes the views of our parents and grandparents. We are supposed to be accepting and loving to all. How about we focus on the actual people doing the crimes or acts of terrorism instead of focusing on what race/religion/gender/sexual preference they are! Evil is an individual problem, if it wasn't then we should just wipe everyone off of the map because at least one person from every walk of life has done something evil in their lifetime...and if we go by 'blanket' statements then none of us deserve to be alive or tolerated anyway.
UGH!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
18 weeks
My cousin recently posted on my facebook wall that I should put up 'baby bump' pictures for those who don't see me on a regular basis. Well....I'm pretty hesitant to do that on facebook since, when fully clothed, I don't necessarily feel like I look pregnant yet- I just think it looks like I've gained a little weight or ate too much or something! Maybe I'm just being weird, but it is way easier to tell the preggo belly without the shirt fully covering it. BUT I'm not about to post pictures of my bare belly to the world of facebook since I'm friends with former students and people that I may not necessarily want seeing my belly...I'm just too self conscious or something I don't know.
So I decided to post some here since only like 3 people read this (maybe more that I don't know...but if I don't know them then it doesn't really bother me too much) and I'll just give my cousin the link so she can look and show family if she wants or whatever....
Ugh...I'm still not used to the whole baby belly thing-I used to be pretty skinny in high school (remember I got to that size zero Jenna?!?!?) and I was pretty fit in college, not a size zero but definitely a small person. Once I got out of college I start to put on a little weight which made me feel TERRIBLE and then once I got married I gained even more(I still wouldn't consider myself big but definitely couldn't fit in anything I wore when I was 18-21). So now that I'm gaining baby weight I feel kinda depressed-I know you'll say that I'm just gaining baby weight and it is natural but it's very hard seeing your body go from a size 5 to a who knows what in maternity clothes! And when my students look at my belly and say "oh my gosh Mrs. D has a little baby bump" it is sometimes hard to comprehend. I guess I was just always preoccupied with being skinny-which is why I got to a size zero in high school-and now that I'm not "skinny" it is hard to see myself the same way.
I by no means want pity for any of these feelings by the way...because I do know that the baby belly means that I'm going to have a bundle of joy soon. I also know that it is completely natural and something that I can remedy after the baby is born-I just wanted you to know why I'm not posting pictures and things like that on facebook and such.
These were all taken today, just at different angles.
Don't mind the messy counter my makeup kinda takes over the whole thing!
Obviously as you can tell by the awkwardness of my pose I was trying to stick it out just a bit...btw these are my favorite pants, army green and totally chic mommy pants!
And the side view. Some of my students asked why I'm not big yet considering I'm almost 5 months, but I keep telling that that they just have to wait another month or so and then I'll be super big! Well maybe not super big but definitely rounder!
So I decided to post some here since only like 3 people read this (maybe more that I don't know...but if I don't know them then it doesn't really bother me too much) and I'll just give my cousin the link so she can look and show family if she wants or whatever....
Ugh...I'm still not used to the whole baby belly thing-I used to be pretty skinny in high school (remember I got to that size zero Jenna?!?!?) and I was pretty fit in college, not a size zero but definitely a small person. Once I got out of college I start to put on a little weight which made me feel TERRIBLE and then once I got married I gained even more(I still wouldn't consider myself big but definitely couldn't fit in anything I wore when I was 18-21). So now that I'm gaining baby weight I feel kinda depressed-I know you'll say that I'm just gaining baby weight and it is natural but it's very hard seeing your body go from a size 5 to a who knows what in maternity clothes! And when my students look at my belly and say "oh my gosh Mrs. D has a little baby bump" it is sometimes hard to comprehend. I guess I was just always preoccupied with being skinny-which is why I got to a size zero in high school-and now that I'm not "skinny" it is hard to see myself the same way.
I by no means want pity for any of these feelings by the way...because I do know that the baby belly means that I'm going to have a bundle of joy soon. I also know that it is completely natural and something that I can remedy after the baby is born-I just wanted you to know why I'm not posting pictures and things like that on facebook and such.
These were all taken today, just at different angles.
Don't mind the messy counter my makeup kinda takes over the whole thing!
Obviously as you can tell by the awkwardness of my pose I was trying to stick it out just a bit...btw these are my favorite pants, army green and totally chic mommy pants!
And the side view. Some of my students asked why I'm not big yet considering I'm almost 5 months, but I keep telling that that they just have to wait another month or so and then I'll be super big! Well maybe not super big but definitely rounder!
Monday, August 23, 2010
You can't escape the bad you've done...
Just a quick note...
If you do something bad...especially under age (example: drinking, drugs etc...) don't think that no one will find out. Also...don't think that because your 'friend' says that they won't tell anyone that they really mean it! The life of a teenager is full of gossip no matter where you go, it doesn't matter what school you go to, what group you belong to or how careful you think you're being.
(this all stems from me seeing 'facebook drama' about gossip and people saying the school I work at is worse than others....let me tell you IT ISN'T)
I'm just saying.
In other news related to me, myself and I....
This week marks the 17th week of my pregnancy! Whoop! Nothing has changed really, still tired and hungry most of the time but I'm doing well. We go Sept. 8th to find out if it is a boy or a girl so I'm taking bets now!
If you do something bad...especially under age (example: drinking, drugs etc...) don't think that no one will find out. Also...don't think that because your 'friend' says that they won't tell anyone that they really mean it! The life of a teenager is full of gossip no matter where you go, it doesn't matter what school you go to, what group you belong to or how careful you think you're being.
(this all stems from me seeing 'facebook drama' about gossip and people saying the school I work at is worse than others....let me tell you IT ISN'T)
I'm just saying.
In other news related to me, myself and I....
This week marks the 17th week of my pregnancy! Whoop! Nothing has changed really, still tired and hungry most of the time but I'm doing well. We go Sept. 8th to find out if it is a boy or a girl so I'm taking bets now!
Monday, August 2, 2010
14 weeks and jury duty
So this week marks the 14th week of my pregnancy- I have started to show a little, which I'm not sure if that is a good sign or a sign that I'm just going to be really big. Let's hope that it is just a good sign or I'm carrying twins or something....I really don't want to be a big fat pregnant person. Other than feeling slightly uncomfortable in my clothes, everything is going just fine or I assume that it is fine. I go to the doctor on the 10th for another check up so I'll update you after that too.
I have to go to jury duty tomorrow- it is actually for the district court so I'll get paid $40 a day plus 50 cents a mile. So getting paid that much is quite nice but it still doesn't make me want to go and sit in a court room all day. I really hop e that they don't pick me, and I plan on doing whatever it takes to get out of getting picked. If I do get picked it would severely ruin a lot of the 'goings-on' in the next coming weeks...
Next week starts in-service for school...a whole five days of meetings, technology updates (super boring) and things that really don't affect me directly. While getting out of in-service for jury duty would be awesome-that would leave me completely unprepared for when school starts. An unprepared me = a very very extremely stressed out me.
Also as I mentioned, I have a doctor's appointment and I really don't want to have to reschedule. For some reason I just find these appointments reassuring to know that my baby's heart is beating strong just makes it easier to relax.
Let's pray that I don't get picked tomorrow! :)
I have to go to jury duty tomorrow- it is actually for the district court so I'll get paid $40 a day plus 50 cents a mile. So getting paid that much is quite nice but it still doesn't make me want to go and sit in a court room all day. I really hop e that they don't pick me, and I plan on doing whatever it takes to get out of getting picked. If I do get picked it would severely ruin a lot of the 'goings-on' in the next coming weeks...
Next week starts in-service for school...a whole five days of meetings, technology updates (super boring) and things that really don't affect me directly. While getting out of in-service for jury duty would be awesome-that would leave me completely unprepared for when school starts. An unprepared me = a very very extremely stressed out me.
Also as I mentioned, I have a doctor's appointment and I really don't want to have to reschedule. For some reason I just find these appointments reassuring to know that my baby's heart is beating strong just makes it easier to relax.
Let's pray that I don't get picked tomorrow! :)
Sunday, July 25, 2010
What you can buy me for Christmas, Birthday or just for fun :)
http://www.steelespublishing.com/ProductDetails.asp?ProductCode=Standard+Edition
The complete artwork of Tim Burton in a book.
Please? Thank you.
The complete artwork of Tim Burton in a book.
Please? Thank you.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Where did Train go and why did they come back?
I remember when I first heard the band Train back in uh....2001 (sorry I had to google that). 2001, I was a sophomore in high school at that time and I really liked that song "Drops of Jupiter" but eventually it got old and I didn't like the adult contemporary sound; I was slowly turning towards punk rock and let's face it The Dead Kennedys probably wouldn't approve of Train. The band has been together since the mid-90s, that is a stinking long time!!
ANYWAY....
I'll get to my point since I'm not really clever today (it's a billion degrees outside in Texas, again, and it zaps all my brain power).
WHY DID TRAIN COME BACK?????
I am SICK, SICK I tell you of that stupid, pop, crap, dirt, yuckiness "Hey, Soul Sister" it really needs to go die slowly in an elevator somewhere in Manhattan. I'm really not a fan, I've tried my hardest to sing along to the catchy beat and love the obnoxious ukulele but I just CAN'T.
To further cement my dislike of Train there was their performance on America's Got Talent. Did you see it? No? Check it out on youtube....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzT9SQfMEDc
Do you think it was a good performance? For a band that has been around since I was like 8 or 9 shouldn't they know how to perform in public? Or maybe is it just because they are aging and the lead singer just can't hit those notes anymore?
If you have a different opinion and would like to correct me or convince me that they don't suck by all means give it your best shot!
ANYWAY....
I'll get to my point since I'm not really clever today (it's a billion degrees outside in Texas, again, and it zaps all my brain power).
WHY DID TRAIN COME BACK?????
I am SICK, SICK I tell you of that stupid, pop, crap, dirt, yuckiness "Hey, Soul Sister" it really needs to go die slowly in an elevator somewhere in Manhattan. I'm really not a fan, I've tried my hardest to sing along to the catchy beat and love the obnoxious ukulele but I just CAN'T.
To further cement my dislike of Train there was their performance on America's Got Talent. Did you see it? No? Check it out on youtube....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzT9SQfMEDc
Do you think it was a good performance? For a band that has been around since I was like 8 or 9 shouldn't they know how to perform in public? Or maybe is it just because they are aging and the lead singer just can't hit those notes anymore?
If you have a different opinion and would like to correct me or convince me that they don't suck by all means give it your best shot!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Dang you China Sun!
I think I have started the 'craving' phase of my pregnancy. I was watching Bram Stoker's Dracula (which by far is my most favorite vampire movie of all time, because it just makes more sense...silly Twilight, vampires don't twinkle in the sun) and I was hit by the sudden urge...no, not urge...desire for chicken fried rice.
Problem number 1: I do not know how to make chicken fried rice and even if I did we don't have the necessary ingredients.
Problem number 2: After realizing that I have to resort to take out, I also realize that my lil dinky town has no such place offering Chinese food. We only have Pizza Hut, McDonalds and Jack in the Box...what a selection!
Problem number 3: I finally figure that I'll just run into the next town for some China Sun take out...but they won't answer their phone. So, I'll just drive there no big deal.
So here is me, pregnant lady, driving all the way to China Sun -only to get there and see that THEY ARE CLOSED ON SUNDAYS!!! AGGHHHH!!!!
Now I'm eating Burger King because I can't really stomach McDonalds anymore and nothing else sounded worthy of my time.
Random: my house is surrounded/infested by crickets...if I could just organize them into some sort of circus I'm sure I'd make millions.
Okay, so I am going to take this time to tell my friend Jessica that I think she is amazing! And I am so glad that I got to meet her in college and that I'm so very happy that we are still friends :) You inspire me to be more crafty, resourceful, down to earth and over all more loving to the people around me!
Maybe we don't make more friends in our older age (ha! older age...) because we've already found the coolest people there is to find.
Problem number 1: I do not know how to make chicken fried rice and even if I did we don't have the necessary ingredients.
Problem number 2: After realizing that I have to resort to take out, I also realize that my lil dinky town has no such place offering Chinese food. We only have Pizza Hut, McDonalds and Jack in the Box...what a selection!
Problem number 3: I finally figure that I'll just run into the next town for some China Sun take out...but they won't answer their phone. So, I'll just drive there no big deal.
So here is me, pregnant lady, driving all the way to China Sun -only to get there and see that THEY ARE CLOSED ON SUNDAYS!!! AGGHHHH!!!!
Now I'm eating Burger King because I can't really stomach McDonalds anymore and nothing else sounded worthy of my time.
Random: my house is surrounded/infested by crickets...if I could just organize them into some sort of circus I'm sure I'd make millions.
Okay, so I am going to take this time to tell my friend Jessica that I think she is amazing! And I am so glad that I got to meet her in college and that I'm so very happy that we are still friends :) You inspire me to be more crafty, resourceful, down to earth and over all more loving to the people around me!
Maybe we don't make more friends in our older age (ha! older age...) because we've already found the coolest people there is to find.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Update
Shoot me.
The school also doesn't pay their part of the insurance premium while I'm out on maternity leave. So not only am I not getting paid, but I'll have to pay for my insurance in full.
They really want me to have a mental breakdown.
The school also doesn't pay their part of the insurance premium while I'm out on maternity leave. So not only am I not getting paid, but I'll have to pay for my insurance in full.
They really want me to have a mental breakdown.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
No paid maternity leave
I'm SO SO SO SO SO upset right now. I just found out that I do not get paid maternity leave, I know that a lot of jobs do not offer that, but I really figured that mine would!
I have just been plunged into a mini depression. I have so many things running through my mind now...
How can we go 6 weeks without my paycheck? Can I even take the 6 weeks off? Does that mean I'll have to leave my newborn baby with someone else sooner than expected? How do we pay for doctor's visits? What if something happens to me and I have to be out 6 weeks??
Plus my insurance sucks so that is a money sucker too....
I think I might just go cry in a corner. And early today I was in such a good mood because I thought that everything was going so well...
I know I should be excited about having the baby, period. But if you know me...you know that it is impossible for me to think that way; my mind goes directly towards negative things every chance it gets. I know that I really should only worry about keeping myself healthy and the baby healthy but how can I not stress out when we might go broke?!?!
Ugh...I can't even write coherently anymore so I'm out.
I have just been plunged into a mini depression. I have so many things running through my mind now...
How can we go 6 weeks without my paycheck? Can I even take the 6 weeks off? Does that mean I'll have to leave my newborn baby with someone else sooner than expected? How do we pay for doctor's visits? What if something happens to me and I have to be out 6 weeks??
Plus my insurance sucks so that is a money sucker too....
I think I might just go cry in a corner. And early today I was in such a good mood because I thought that everything was going so well...
I know I should be excited about having the baby, period. But if you know me...you know that it is impossible for me to think that way; my mind goes directly towards negative things every chance it gets. I know that I really should only worry about keeping myself healthy and the baby healthy but how can I not stress out when we might go broke?!?!
Ugh...I can't even write coherently anymore so I'm out.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Question of the week...or wuestion as I first typed it
If you saw this name...
NAZIH
how would you pronounce it?
An old friend of mine just named her firstborn son this and I can't help but think of WWII Germany! What a future for this child....
NAZIH
how would you pronounce it?
An old friend of mine just named her firstborn son this and I can't help but think of WWII Germany! What a future for this child....
Friday, July 2, 2010
Myself first
Today I chose to put myself first.
I chose not to back down to someone who is clearly out of their mind.
I chose not to give the said person an excuse for their behavior because let's face it, your behavior was unjustifiable and unforgivable.
You could pay me a million dollars every year until the day I die and I will still despise you, loathe you and want you banished from my exsistence.
The most depressing part of this situation is that they will always choose you over me. My life, my husband, my child, my home, my feelings, my sanity, my safety...they all mean nothing compared to you and your 'problems'. Since I can remember they have chosen you, so why would it be different now. "Oh, poor you...you just can't help it" or "Amanda, you need to suck it up because there are bigger issues to deal with" or "We need you (meaning me) to be the bigger person, we ignore you because we know you'll be okay".
WELL I AM CERTAINLY NOT OKAY! But it is too late for apologies and too late for you to fix things...because you choose him.
And I choose me.
I chose not to back down to someone who is clearly out of their mind.
I chose not to give the said person an excuse for their behavior because let's face it, your behavior was unjustifiable and unforgivable.
You could pay me a million dollars every year until the day I die and I will still despise you, loathe you and want you banished from my exsistence.
The most depressing part of this situation is that they will always choose you over me. My life, my husband, my child, my home, my feelings, my sanity, my safety...they all mean nothing compared to you and your 'problems'. Since I can remember they have chosen you, so why would it be different now. "Oh, poor you...you just can't help it" or "Amanda, you need to suck it up because there are bigger issues to deal with" or "We need you (meaning me) to be the bigger person, we ignore you because we know you'll be okay".
WELL I AM CERTAINLY NOT OKAY! But it is too late for apologies and too late for you to fix things...because you choose him.
And I choose me.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Craziest Vacation EVER!! this is a really long story
Over the weekend my family travelled to Branson, MO to meet up with my dad's side of the fam for my grandparents 60th anniversary! We rented a 6 bedroom house just for the occasion and things couldn't have gone worse....
We arrived Thursday around 5:30 and of course I was starving and supper wouldn't be ready for another hour and a half. My pregnant self of course had a hissy fit but this truly wasn't the bad part. As soon as my family got there we had dinner and everyone got to talking and laughing and just having a good time. My cousin and her husband made a movie of all of us sharing memories about my grandparents and we showed it to them (of course my grandmother bawled her eyes out and my papa laughed like none other at all the stuff we said=mission accomplished). So here is where the fun for my lil family of 6 ends.
In the middle of the night my dad started getting sick, to put it politely he just couldn't get out of the bathroom. On Friday morning we all travelled to Silver Dollar City (which is like a country/redneck six flags) with my sick dad complaining the whole way there. By the time we parked and got to the tram that takes you to the park, my dad was extremely out of breath, sweating like crazy and looked like he was about to pass out. We left him and my mom at the tram station and went into the park to ask for medical assistance. My dad's blood pressure was super low when it is usually high so they took him to the hospital. Turns out he was extremely dehydrated and had caught a nasty bug...what made his blood pressure so low was the combo of dehydration and his blood pressure meds. So now dad is fine, very tired and still sick but fine...
Friday evening rolls around and all the ladies are sitting around the table just chit chatting...giving me advice and weird stories about pregnancy...talking about my cousin's new house etc. My mom all of the sudden leaps up from the table and walks downstairs...dad comes up 5 minutes later to say mom threw up all over the bathroom. So now everyone is thinking that my mom has what my dad has and that we are all going to get sick...terrible!!
Saturday morning- it is time to take the family pictures (which turned out awesome!) and my mom is still sick. She does however make it upstairs to take the picture only to return back to bed as soon as she was done. She spent the WHOLE day downstairs sleeping on and off and drinking a million gallons of water but keeping none of it down. The last time I checked on her which was around 11:00 that night she was breathing REALLY hard but she was sleeping and she hadn't thrown up in a while.
Around 3:00 AM I feel someone tugging at my blankets to wake me up...it was my dad. He asked me to come and talk to mom because he couldn't make any sense out of what she was saying. I walk in to see my mom on the bed still breathing so rapidly I thought she had run a marathon and I asked her what was wrong. What came out of her mouth made absolutely no sense to me or my dad. She was completely disoriented and she truly acted as if she had a stroke. I ran upstairs to get my cousin, who is a nurse, to ask for her advice on what to do. She immediately said to call the paramedics...the paramedics also checked to see if she had a stroke because honestly they couldn't think of anything else. Until that is, they checked her blood sugar level and it was well over 500...which if you know anything is WAY too high! Apparently what was happening was that she was in a diabetic coma...which for our family was super strange because we thought no one in our family had diabetes. My mom went to the hospital and was diagnosed with diabetes and they have been monitoring her ever since. I called my Aunt, my mom's sister, to let her know what had happened and she informed me that my grandfather had diabetes and they just never told anyone!!! Now we assume adult onset diabetes runs in my family...just great!
Anyway to make this whole story end...my mom is still in Missouri and she may or may not get out of the ICU tomorrow, her blood sugar just shot up again so we will have to see. Hopefully, she will be able to come home this week...I know my nephew already misses her and it is so weird not being able to text her or anything...
We arrived Thursday around 5:30 and of course I was starving and supper wouldn't be ready for another hour and a half. My pregnant self of course had a hissy fit but this truly wasn't the bad part. As soon as my family got there we had dinner and everyone got to talking and laughing and just having a good time. My cousin and her husband made a movie of all of us sharing memories about my grandparents and we showed it to them (of course my grandmother bawled her eyes out and my papa laughed like none other at all the stuff we said=mission accomplished). So here is where the fun for my lil family of 6 ends.
In the middle of the night my dad started getting sick, to put it politely he just couldn't get out of the bathroom. On Friday morning we all travelled to Silver Dollar City (which is like a country/redneck six flags) with my sick dad complaining the whole way there. By the time we parked and got to the tram that takes you to the park, my dad was extremely out of breath, sweating like crazy and looked like he was about to pass out. We left him and my mom at the tram station and went into the park to ask for medical assistance. My dad's blood pressure was super low when it is usually high so they took him to the hospital. Turns out he was extremely dehydrated and had caught a nasty bug...what made his blood pressure so low was the combo of dehydration and his blood pressure meds. So now dad is fine, very tired and still sick but fine...
Friday evening rolls around and all the ladies are sitting around the table just chit chatting...giving me advice and weird stories about pregnancy...talking about my cousin's new house etc. My mom all of the sudden leaps up from the table and walks downstairs...dad comes up 5 minutes later to say mom threw up all over the bathroom. So now everyone is thinking that my mom has what my dad has and that we are all going to get sick...terrible!!
Saturday morning- it is time to take the family pictures (which turned out awesome!) and my mom is still sick. She does however make it upstairs to take the picture only to return back to bed as soon as she was done. She spent the WHOLE day downstairs sleeping on and off and drinking a million gallons of water but keeping none of it down. The last time I checked on her which was around 11:00 that night she was breathing REALLY hard but she was sleeping and she hadn't thrown up in a while.
Around 3:00 AM I feel someone tugging at my blankets to wake me up...it was my dad. He asked me to come and talk to mom because he couldn't make any sense out of what she was saying. I walk in to see my mom on the bed still breathing so rapidly I thought she had run a marathon and I asked her what was wrong. What came out of her mouth made absolutely no sense to me or my dad. She was completely disoriented and she truly acted as if she had a stroke. I ran upstairs to get my cousin, who is a nurse, to ask for her advice on what to do. She immediately said to call the paramedics...the paramedics also checked to see if she had a stroke because honestly they couldn't think of anything else. Until that is, they checked her blood sugar level and it was well over 500...which if you know anything is WAY too high! Apparently what was happening was that she was in a diabetic coma...which for our family was super strange because we thought no one in our family had diabetes. My mom went to the hospital and was diagnosed with diabetes and they have been monitoring her ever since. I called my Aunt, my mom's sister, to let her know what had happened and she informed me that my grandfather had diabetes and they just never told anyone!!! Now we assume adult onset diabetes runs in my family...just great!
Anyway to make this whole story end...my mom is still in Missouri and she may or may not get out of the ICU tomorrow, her blood sugar just shot up again so we will have to see. Hopefully, she will be able to come home this week...I know my nephew already misses her and it is so weird not being able to text her or anything...
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I'M TIRED OF BEING HUNGRY!!!!
Listen up all you non-pregnant people (who haven't been pregnant before)....not everyone gets morning sickness, I haven't yet thank God, not everyone has strange cravings for pickles and ice cream BUT you will feel like you are starving! No joke!
This is the 8th week of my pregnancy, two months down and 7 more to go (God, that seems soooooo lengthy) and I feel like I could eat 5,000 calories a day! Obviously, I don't because I do tend to get an upset stomach when I eat too much at one time, which is why I've become a perpetual snacker, but I AM always hungry. It is the worst feeling in the world to be unsatisfied with your meals, or to be satisfied by a great piece of salmon with broccoli and carrots (oh, so delicious) only to be hungry again 2 hours later. FRUSTRATING!!!!! I don't want to gain so much weight that it will be hard for me to lose it after the baby, but how can you not gain weight when you are constantly hungry? I'm not exaggerating at all! I've been eating relatively healthy too because I'm paranoid of gaining 50 pounds when my doctor told me only 20-25!! What can I do?? Help!
My mom was telling me that she knew a lady when we lived out in CT that loved being pregnant. She told my mom that being pregnant was the greatest thing.....
THAT LADY IS FREAKING CRAZY!!!! To be honest, I really haven't had it that bad. I've only thrown up once because I took my vitamins on an empty stomach, but other than that it's been pretty okay. Sometimes that worries me because I tend to think that I have to have the common symptoms for everything to go okay, but maybe you don't. But still being hungry (and so tired that I think I'd rather have mono for 3 months again) after eating is just plain irritating.
Sigh...well, I'm off to see what is in my fridge, freezer or pantry...again.
This is the 8th week of my pregnancy, two months down and 7 more to go (God, that seems soooooo lengthy) and I feel like I could eat 5,000 calories a day! Obviously, I don't because I do tend to get an upset stomach when I eat too much at one time, which is why I've become a perpetual snacker, but I AM always hungry. It is the worst feeling in the world to be unsatisfied with your meals, or to be satisfied by a great piece of salmon with broccoli and carrots (oh, so delicious) only to be hungry again 2 hours later. FRUSTRATING!!!!! I don't want to gain so much weight that it will be hard for me to lose it after the baby, but how can you not gain weight when you are constantly hungry? I'm not exaggerating at all! I've been eating relatively healthy too because I'm paranoid of gaining 50 pounds when my doctor told me only 20-25!! What can I do?? Help!
My mom was telling me that she knew a lady when we lived out in CT that loved being pregnant. She told my mom that being pregnant was the greatest thing.....
THAT LADY IS FREAKING CRAZY!!!! To be honest, I really haven't had it that bad. I've only thrown up once because I took my vitamins on an empty stomach, but other than that it's been pretty okay. Sometimes that worries me because I tend to think that I have to have the common symptoms for everything to go okay, but maybe you don't. But still being hungry (and so tired that I think I'd rather have mono for 3 months again) after eating is just plain irritating.
Sigh...well, I'm off to see what is in my fridge, freezer or pantry...again.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Babies R Us
I AM PREGNANT!
Stats:
7 weeks along as of 6/16
Next appointment in a month
Projected due date: Feb. 2nd
Baby is healthy and I am healthy
That is all for now :)
More will come as the pregnancy gets further along...
Stats:
7 weeks along as of 6/16
Next appointment in a month
Projected due date: Feb. 2nd
Baby is healthy and I am healthy
That is all for now :)
More will come as the pregnancy gets further along...
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Attempted Murder
I have this doll, ironically named Dolly, that I have successfully kept unharmed for 24 years of my life which is a HUGE accomplishment considering what I put her through. Seriously, I brought this thing with me everywhere and when my mom tried to wash her I would sit by the laundry room and wait until she was clean. She is in this bunny costume, which used to be white but now it's very dingy, and she is just the best thing ever. When my house caught on fire in '96 my dad went back into the house to find her because I was so upset. She survived a freaking fire that took my whole closet, ended up breaking my bed and destroying most of my toys...but she survived.
I don't sleep with her anymore because a) I am 24; b) I have a husband to cuddle with and the most important reason c)I really wanted to keep her as intact as possible to pass on to my future child.
BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
The new dog, Duke, has proved himself a murderer and Harley was his accomplice!!!!!!! I woke up this morning to find this...get ready for a sequence of unsettling photos.
Needless to say, I bawled like a little baby for about 20 minutes.
I don't sleep with her anymore because a) I am 24; b) I have a husband to cuddle with and the most important reason c)I really wanted to keep her as intact as possible to pass on to my future child.
BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
The new dog, Duke, has proved himself a murderer and Harley was his accomplice!!!!!!! I woke up this morning to find this...get ready for a sequence of unsettling photos.
Needless to say, I bawled like a little baby for about 20 minutes.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Grandma
There is this old picture of my grandma at my moms house where she is just stinking gorgeous. I think it was on or near her wedding day...obviously in black and white and I don't know I just love it. (someday I'll post it here, maybe this weekend)
Anyway...I was playing with my new computer and the camera settings and this came out. It looks like my Grandma and I just thought I'd share. It may not be the best picture of me, but I like it and that is all that really matters. AND it reminds me of my Grandma...she's probably up in Heaven playing cards and drinking beer with my Grandfather right now. :) (And just for fyi she is who I'm naming my first born girl after, whenever that happens, her name was Eleanore Marie)
Annnnnnd that is the end. Superfluous blog post I know...but I'm waiting for my new pool to warm up a bit in the sun before I go out to get my annual sunburn.
Later
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Accosted at Walmart
Jeff got a part time job at Walmart, not really to supplement income so much as to give him stuff to do while he is in the reserves (or this is what I see from my perspective). I usually shop at wally world because it is cheap and I don't want to spend a lot of money on cheap things like cereal or toilet paper.
Okay I just wrote a whole long paragraph explaining what happened this afternoon and then it got erased. So you are now going to get the short version.
I went to walmart for two reasons: pick up some basic groceries (that we so desperately needed) and see Jeff. As I was walking out with my cart full of groceries I made sure to check around the car to make sure no one was creeping around it and what not. Yes, I realize this makes me kinda paranoid and weird, but as my mother always says 'better safe than sorry'. I unloaded my groceries into my trunk, going as fast as humanly possible, and much to my surprise there was a man standing on the opposite side of my car. At first he didn't say anything, so I figured he was walking by...I went and put my cart away and he was still there. He walked a little closer to me and said
Guy: Can I ask you a question? I just moved here from Las Vegas and I was wondering if I could have your phone number since I don't know that many people?
Now as he was saying this he moved his hand towards his private parts where he had his pants unzipped and he wasn't wearing any underwear. I quickly said no as my heart starting racing because this guy REALLY creeped me out, hopped in my car and sped away as fast as the parking lot allowed me to. I didn't see where the guy went or what car he came from because I was too busy coming up with some sort of plan if he tried to come any closer to me.
GAH!!! I used to feel semi-safe going to that particular walmart by myself, but now I will never go there ever again. I know that that was only one guy and in the grand scheme of things there are more people like me than there are of him. BUT and that's a huge but, I don't ever want to be in that situation again. It was extremely uncomfortable and scary. I did inform my husband so that he could tell management about the creepy dude chilling in their parking lot so I hope they do something about it.
My question for you is: What would you do in that situation? Do you think he was just a pervert-flasher or is my paranoia justified?
Sorry that this blog makes no grammatical or story-like sense, I am truly too freaked out to make any sense of all this.
Okay I just wrote a whole long paragraph explaining what happened this afternoon and then it got erased. So you are now going to get the short version.
I went to walmart for two reasons: pick up some basic groceries (that we so desperately needed) and see Jeff. As I was walking out with my cart full of groceries I made sure to check around the car to make sure no one was creeping around it and what not. Yes, I realize this makes me kinda paranoid and weird, but as my mother always says 'better safe than sorry'. I unloaded my groceries into my trunk, going as fast as humanly possible, and much to my surprise there was a man standing on the opposite side of my car. At first he didn't say anything, so I figured he was walking by...I went and put my cart away and he was still there. He walked a little closer to me and said
Guy: Can I ask you a question? I just moved here from Las Vegas and I was wondering if I could have your phone number since I don't know that many people?
Now as he was saying this he moved his hand towards his private parts where he had his pants unzipped and he wasn't wearing any underwear. I quickly said no as my heart starting racing because this guy REALLY creeped me out, hopped in my car and sped away as fast as the parking lot allowed me to. I didn't see where the guy went or what car he came from because I was too busy coming up with some sort of plan if he tried to come any closer to me.
GAH!!! I used to feel semi-safe going to that particular walmart by myself, but now I will never go there ever again. I know that that was only one guy and in the grand scheme of things there are more people like me than there are of him. BUT and that's a huge but, I don't ever want to be in that situation again. It was extremely uncomfortable and scary. I did inform my husband so that he could tell management about the creepy dude chilling in their parking lot so I hope they do something about it.
My question for you is: What would you do in that situation? Do you think he was just a pervert-flasher or is my paranoia justified?
Sorry that this blog makes no grammatical or story-like sense, I am truly too freaked out to make any sense of all this.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Long time
No blog.
That's because I have a lot of crap to do these days. Too much to think about, too much to do! So here is a short list of what has happened in the past couple of months
-Jeff re-enlisted, this time into the Army. He might go to Africa next year...yay for him! Boo for me, because I'll have to stay here (so much for any adventure!)
-School is almost over, so that means I am almost done with my 2nd year of teaching. Did it go better than last year? Eh...it had its ups and downs. I'm not sure what to think of teaching yet. I get so frustrated sometimes, but then there are times like these....
Student A: "Mrs. D I was watching The Office yesterday and they had our vocabulary word on there! It was cuckold...and I knew what it meant before they explained it!"
Me: "Oh, so you have actually learned something this year!"
Times like that are awesome, but most of the time they are out done by times like these...
Student A: "This class is so easy, it is like a blow off class."
Me: "Then why are you making a C."
Student A: "Because you don't teach us anything important like Math, so I don't care."
UGHHHHHHHHH wouldn't that frustrate you? I challenge anyone to teach junior high for one week and then reconsider why you are frustrated or upset with your job. Junior high kids can be the most cruel and uncaring people sometimes and they honestly don't care if they hurt your feelings or make you angry. Detentions don't bother them, talking to their parents doesn't matter to them...they are immune to all authority!!!
Well...that is all I have for now. Hopefully, I can update on a more regular basis now that summer is rearing its 100 degree weather head.
That's because I have a lot of crap to do these days. Too much to think about, too much to do! So here is a short list of what has happened in the past couple of months
-Jeff re-enlisted, this time into the Army. He might go to Africa next year...yay for him! Boo for me, because I'll have to stay here (so much for any adventure!)
-School is almost over, so that means I am almost done with my 2nd year of teaching. Did it go better than last year? Eh...it had its ups and downs. I'm not sure what to think of teaching yet. I get so frustrated sometimes, but then there are times like these....
Student A: "Mrs. D I was watching The Office yesterday and they had our vocabulary word on there! It was cuckold...and I knew what it meant before they explained it!"
Me: "Oh, so you have actually learned something this year!"
Times like that are awesome, but most of the time they are out done by times like these...
Student A: "This class is so easy, it is like a blow off class."
Me: "Then why are you making a C."
Student A: "Because you don't teach us anything important like Math, so I don't care."
UGHHHHHHHHH wouldn't that frustrate you? I challenge anyone to teach junior high for one week and then reconsider why you are frustrated or upset with your job. Junior high kids can be the most cruel and uncaring people sometimes and they honestly don't care if they hurt your feelings or make you angry. Detentions don't bother them, talking to their parents doesn't matter to them...they are immune to all authority!!!
Well...that is all I have for now. Hopefully, I can update on a more regular basis now that summer is rearing its 100 degree weather head.
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